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j wong.
j tan.
j tay.
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j zhou.
k wong.
k kong.
k khor.
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l lim.
m ong.
m wong.
m ong.
r tan.
s leong.
s tan.
s cho.
s yung.
t koh.
v ching.
yy tay.
z chia.

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isnt it stunning how fast your entire universe can be sent spinning off the edge?

in just days, your world can transform from one full of pink cherry blossoms, sweet smelling lavender, and golden patches of sunlight into one full of uncertainty and confuzzlement, where sights, senses and emotions are muddled together in one indistiguishable mush. it's where the lines between appearances versus reality are drawn, stark and contrasting against one another.

and it sucks.

to know that the world isn't as you thought it to be. to know that hey, the status quo in your head ain'y the status quo in reality.

you're probably thinking like, yea right, how can that happen. how can one's world just topple over in a short span of a few days, pushed off its equilibrium and sending tremors of chaos through the very foundations of one's blissful life? well let me tell you something. SHIT HAPPENS. i for one would know.

for in just days, your eyes can be opened to the things around you.
the one you thought was your bestie could have a bestie of his own.
in a group of close friends you could turn out to be on the outskirts.
the people you thought you've grown close to could turn out to be as distant as ever.

or were the events of the past few days such a disconnect from the realm of reality that i'm just supposed to cast them away, and get a move on with life? it's so confusing... what's real and what's not? after all, what you see is what you get isn't it?

i love all my friends... i want them to be blessed. i want them to be loved, to channel the love i receive from God to them. but i dunno... i guess it's emotionally draining to know that some people may not feel as close to you as you feel to them? it's like emptying out a cup faster than it's getting refilled. or maybe it's just cos i'm squeezing shut the stream of God's love. but then again, why can't we all be blessed with friends who love us as much as we love them...

ARGH.

God please help me. cos what i need is answers.

AMEN;
9:45 pm

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